33 Weeks

33 weeks

And because I always like to see a comparison close together, here's last weeks, too.

32 weeks

Yes, it's a terrible picture. They usually are because we take them at 9:30 or 10:00 and I'm wiped out.  But it's honest and that's worth something, right? Sleep is hard to come by and exhaustion is ever-present. So when I look back on this, at least it will be truthful to the state of being.

Front Shot

I realized we haven't done a front shot in a long time.  I find it slightly staggering to look it at like this.  But I'm glad I've documented the belly this pregnancy.  I've never done this before and I know I'll like looking back on it.

32 Weeks

This week

Last week
Wow!  Is it just me or did the belly get waaayyy bigger this week???

Jesse's Love

So I have to wear a ponytail most of the time, as I mentioned.  Jesse, who is very, very clingy and attached, spends a lot of time near this ponytail and he often plays with it.  One day, as he rubbed the ponytail against his cheek, over and over, he said with delight, "It love me, Mama.  See?  It love me!"  Several times since then he has done that same thing and told me the ponytail loves him.  He even rubbed it on his face once when he got hurt, for comfort.  I think it's very sweet.  It also explains why he wants to spend so much time cheek-to-cheek with me, sometimes gently rubbing.  Clearly, he associates touch against his cheek with love.

31 Week Picture, A Little Late

30 Weeks!!!

Ten weeks to go.  I'll admit I'm praying they'll be early.  Not dangerously early, but as early as is safe.

His Apologies

So I got out the only video we have of any of our kid's births- Gus's- so the kids could see a newborn baby again and mostly, so that Gus could see himself.  Our camera broke right before he was born and he doesn't have as many baby pictures as the other kids.  Anyway, I fast forwarded thru all the labor stuff and started playing right when I'm holding him for the first time.  I was crying in the video.  Except with Jesse, I have always cried for just a minute or two after the baby comes out.  I wish I could say it was with joy, but it really isn't.  I'm not a cry-for-joy kind of person.  I cry because of the relief that it's over and because I find pushing completely excruciating and I can't really believe I just endured it. 

So, in the video, I'm holding Gus and crying for a minute.  I'm sitting on the floor while we watch and Gus comes up behind me and wraps his arms around my neck and says, very matter-of-fact, "Sorry about that, Mama."  As if he totally understands that I'm crying about the pain his birth caused.  It was so funny and so insightful, I had to laugh.  I even double-checked and asked if he was sorry because it hurt for him to be born and made me cry.  He said, "Yeah.  Sorry about that."  I have gotten a kick out of that all day.

Another funny story- He also came and asked me to clean his ears to "turn them back on," because he had sniffed and it turned one of his ears "off."  I loved it!  And I knew exactly what he meant.  He is so stinkin' cute sometimes!